November!!

posted on: December 8, 2025

Hi sexy people!!! I’m eating a bagel right now and im kinda starving so im hoping i remember everything i want to put here….

Anyways this Fall has been so lovely! Here’s what I did this last month:

I remembered i am tragically bad at bowling, i loveeee throwing my balls in the gutter. I did learn that i was using balls that weren’t heavy enough though, im just so strong and swole. This was at nellie’s birthday party, happy birthday nellie if ur reading!!!

On November 6th, I got to see one of my favorite bands They Are Gutting a Body of Water (TAGABOW) and Fib. They’re kind of essential to the new wave shoegaze we’re seeing and they’re connected to so many other awesome bands like Wednesday. As i stood there i realized why i love shoegaze so much: the vocals are not the forefront of the sound. So many people will dislike a band if they don’t enjoy how the singer sounds, but that doesn’t matter with shoegaze because vocals are not the forefront - the wall of sound is. It’s more so about how the guitars and bass interact, the vocals almost seem like an afterthought at times. Anyways it was just super cool to see the sounds that they could make with the guitars. The opening band, Fib, is another band I’ve liked for a few years now and I was happy to see them! They really impressed me live.

Last month I started attending band practices again because I’m over my concussion, it’s been a very musically inspired time! I also got a new bass! I got a Squire Mustang and she’s so pretty, the strings are so so smooth. It’s a very playable bass, it makes you want to pick up and never stop playing.

I did have to trade in my current bass though, so I said goodbye to my Yamaha :( that bass truly did help me get through one of the darkest periods of my life. In November 2022, I was fired from a job and got broken up with that same day. That same week someone backed into my car, I got a bad grade on a paper, my grandpa almost died, and didn’t do well at a debate tournament. But the bass got me through! It’s nice to see how much has changed between that November and now, this November was so sweet and I got a new bass..

I also hosted a birthday party for one of my best friends! We all dressed as different versions of her, we played trivia, and did karaoke all in the comforts of my home.

I love seeing people come together and I love when my visions come to life.

Went to some hot springs, had a party for the end of the roller derby season.

I went to Denver for the National Communication Association Conference, mainly to see some college besties, Max and Christian. The hotel that the conference was at felt like a fortress, it was this massive building in the middle of nowhere and it is certainly the nicest hotel I’ve ever been to. It was so nice getting to see my friends and getting to live through them vicariously as they attend grad school. I also loved being in an academic space with a bunch of annoying people (like myself), it reminded me of how much I miss casually using the words ‘theory’ and ‘praxis.'

I forced them to go see a Denver Roller Derby home team game and it was genuinely so much fun, we had so much adrenaline and we were shouting as if we were men watching football. It was some of the best roller derby I’ve gotten to see in person with my own two eyes and I’m very inspired by some of their blockers, I have some new derby icons!

For Thanksgiving I went home and it was very nice to lounge around for a few days and chat with my family. Sometimes when I go home I feel like I’m in a different world and I’m unattached to my life in a good way. It is always so strange though, as I drive through the town it always hits me that I know exactly where I’m going and I can navigate that place like it's the back of my hand. Despite it being so familiar, it does not feel quite like home anymore. And it feels almost silly to say that because it was my home for 19 years, I’ve spent most of my life there. This is something that makes me sad and I try to ignore it.. I fear if I ponder on this too long then I’ll get weird.

This last month I watched:

Bugonia - I was instantly captivated by the first few minutes of this movie, which isn’t shocking to say seeing as the leads are Jesse Plemons and Emma Stone, a powerful duo. While I was watching the movie in the theatre, I felt tense almost the entire time. I also was very uncomfortable by some scenes and almost wanted to walk out because it felt like it was too much for my senses. But, the whole time, I was going back and forth with uncertainty of what to believe. The ending was fantastic, I found the last scenes of humanity to be gorgeous. I’m very happy that the movie ended in the way that it did, it was an extremely bold choice and paid off well because I feel like most directors would have done differently.

HIM - This one could have been so cool, but it fell so unbelievably flat. It has the structure and bones to dive into compelling themes revolving around sports - I loved that it started to touch on the performativity of football and how the players must commit to putting on a show while also demonstrating staunch athleticism. There was the conversation of injuries and sports, specifically head injuries, and how easy it is to neglect your wellbeing in the face of success and notoriety. Adding the religious symbolism as well, it seemed like a recipe for a thought provoking film, but it ended up feeling so rushed with no true climax. It flaunted style and cinematography, but that’s really all that’s present. It felt like a music video at times.

I, Tonya - I’ve been meaning to watch this movie for so long and I am so happy I finally have. Underneath the wit and star studded performances lies a deeply tragic, and unsettling story. It is so frustrating to see how Tonya was treated by the figure skating world because I think if she emerged as a skater today, she would have been celebrated rather than deemed less than. To me, she is the all American skater - she is a true reflection of how rural middle America lives and operates, how most people have to make do with what they have and are pushed out by their wealthy counterparts. She was the American dream from the beginning to the end.

I listened to:

They Are Gutting a Body of Water, Julie, Shallowater, Oasis, Arctic Monkeys, Slowdive.

Okay, I think that’s all I want to include!!! See u guys next month!